so much to think about.... including becoming a butterfly

just had a great online lecture by chris bicknell on bookishness.......soooo much to think/reflect about about ....how do i record/keep track of all my thinking ... am i getting stuck in my head (probably!) ....... i feel fragile about trying to translate into words ..... books mean so much to me ...... if i don't record this where has it gone ...?   need to be making but have to get studio set up and  sorted this week  ..... then..... but it all takes time......but so does a caterpillar turning into a butterfly .... where there is just (random?) mush in between.....would prefer to write this by hand but feel its better to 'do' online.