landscape and a sense of place.

Last Friday I had a lovely day out at Robin Hoods Bay .... the only dissappointment being that I didn't take a photo of the amazingly textured sea wall before tide came in ... but here's one anyway from google. I found returning to this area (years after many family hols here) to be interesting in that the surrounding landscape was so like that of Isle of Man. Having been in Yorkshire for 3 months, I am missing 'belonging' to somewhere I recognise/know. I like living in malton, but it is very different living 'in' a town..... the landscape isn't part of my life as it was on IOM.... the hills, trees, sky and sea just aren't here where i'm used to them being. The sky is here, but in towns I don't look up, I look at the shops and the people. Perhaps it's like artist Richard Harrison (sortlisted for John Moores) says he reflects on loss, yearning, longing, in that,  ''i still haven't found what i'm looking for''. I feel this very strongly at the moment as i search/reflect/sift through ideas for my next exploratory project and learn about myself as i do so. It feels like a home sickness for I don't know quite where. In tutorial conversation with Caroline, she put me in touch with 2 other students in Yorkshire, to enable me learn more about art in yorkshire and to discuss settling into a new landsape as landscape was one of my interests. Mentally i said 'really?' ..... and realised i have dismissed working in landsape because i am feeling displaced and can't make from a place i don't recognise..... but then i remember i have an 'internal lanscape'. I want to speak with the other yorkshire students, but first i want to think about my 'internal landscape'. Clare very kindly suggested we met up and went out sketching .... i still owe her an answer ..... but it made me realize that 'sketching isn't my thing' and that i 'look/see' through photograpy/ideas and i'm not really interested in yorkshire landscape at moment - so many artists( of different standards) in yorkshire seems to be painting 'the landscape'..... so what am i interested in then? .... definately not in painting just what is 'out there',  ...... so need to think about this a bit more.
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